I realize now what KP was talking about when he said that it is just too much to take. I understand now. I really didn't before. I'm taking a break from him, I'll call him when I'm ready to talk to him. I'm not sure when that will be.

I'm glad I came home for vacation. I feel much better since coming here. I miss my mom, but I can now look at her picture without crying and I'm much happier. I'm actually smiling again and it feels good. I think when I get back to Nashville, I'm going to start taking care of myself again. I don't like the weight I've gained and I don't like how I feel and all the stress that I hold in.

I missed my family, but now I know that they are okay, maybe I'll be okay too. :)